Dont say I didnt warn you about these two boys....especially that Mach guy. Now dont get me wrong, I enjoy cryptic....but I did have to buy myself a cryptometer when dealing with him. Just sayin..
And Mach.......I aint scardt...:)
Yes, I am personal friends with both of them...God help me. LOL!
So, we all walk this in our own way. No right or wrong way to do it, only your way.
Take what you need or like, leave the rest.
For me, it best to just feel whatever I was feeling. Sometimes I figured out what it was, sometimes I couldnt identify it. But I let myself feel that way for a time. I figured I needed to in order to let it go eventually.
You will go through the stages of grief...anger, sadness, etc. Not always in a straight line and then come back and through them again before acceptance. You are still really early into this.
Anger can be used to propel you forward. Sadness could be used to look within. The thing I learned is that you dont want to live in any of those feelings. The hope is that eventually, they wash over you and are let go.
So, if you dont want to see him, dont. You matter, too, Shining. Your feelings, they all count.
I wouldnt worry too much about forgiveness right now. That will come later. I have no doubt it will for you.
I was right there with you about GAL. Still am sometimes, if I am honest. But you do have to try to push through that some for the time being. It doesnt have to be this big committment. Just something to get you out among people for a bit.
I like that you are seeing yourself a bit differently. I can feel that.
