newbie need help needs help part 4

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Pilot you have interesting comments. I appreciate your support. When it rains it pours. W car towed into dealer looks like transmission. No liquid cash since its tied up in court case. Both boys home sick again today with dad.
I don't know if she is really getting frustrated with my current PMA. I know she is seeing my commitment to helping with kids in a big way. I hate to say that the guilt is taking its toll on her. I'm not going to give her any reasons to be angry with me.
On another note more powerful. I am leaving for the 4 day spiritual weekend thur. For a couple reasons.it's 4 days no phones no contact with the outside world. I know my wife has been rejected by her dad most of her life. It's something she is used to by someone she has loved. I don't ever want her to feel that from me no matter what happens. It's really going to take an inner strength and peace from within me to make this happen. From what I have been told by my friends who have done this weekend before it was very powerful and moving. Some thing to look forward to.