still holding on - 4

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I agree Ahoy. I don't know why she is asking me. I hope because she cares. The jaded part of me says - to dig into me and find out what I need to keep me at her arms length.

I want nothing more that for us to throw everything we want and are feeling on the table. This way we can sort through it all and figure out what we need and if this is going to work. I don't think I am going to get this.

It's so easy!! I just want openness and honesty - no secrets.

I do like the way you worded that^^^. If only I can formulate thoughts like this when it's the right time. I've only achieved clear thoughts like that when I have written her. Conversations tend to not be as well thought out for me.

She asked if I would go on a walk with her tonight - She hasn't done that in months. I do suspect that would be a time to talk.

Thanks