Not sure if this link works -- I'm trying to link to my past thread. The last one was full.
Had a dream about H last night in which we were connecting, possibly working on R. I woke up feeling sad and a bit hopeless about the situation.
Nothing seems to be changing. H has been out of the house for nearly two months now. It's been three since BD. I know I'm supposed to be patient, but he gives me no signs that anything is changing or will change.
I'm committed to waiting until January, but this is so hard. I'm not sure I even want to stay married to him, but I can't just turn on a dime.
He has to renew his health insurance through work next month. He plans to drop me from his plan. I'm self-employed so I'll be shopping for my own in the coming months. This means I get to pay for my upcoming MRI by myself, and he obviously doesn't care about my health or well-being. But he does want to add himself to my daughter and my gym membership as a family. Probably just to save money?
This is torture.
M: 43 H: 39 D: 14 Married 15 Together 16 BD: 6/2014 S: 8/2014 OW revealed 10/2014 Instigated dissolution 12/2014, in progress So over it!
