still holding on - 4

[u-turn]

I know when she says communication, she probably doesn't mean she wants to answer questions about the status of OM. Though I will want this.

I've sent things back to zero before with conversations. It tends to go toward "see you will never get over this. You should have run at the beginning of this". I don't want it to dissolve into that non-productive conversation.

I know we need to take baby steps to move forward, but I still have the questions - I just need to find the balance.