I'm with you there Card on how hard the kids make it to detach.. My mind frame is similar to yours.. Every time I talk to my kids, it hurts to think we may not be back as one again..
Me:35 W:31 S6 + S9 T: 10 years M: 7 years BD: 7/2014 S: 8/2014 W has new BF: 12/2014 Still fighting the good fight!!..