Magingmagic, where'dja go??

[makingmagic]

HI Matt... like his reason for delaying our vacation is now due to prioritizing the new roof & stressing about that? LOL .... his reason is legit, but how does one point that out to him with out it causing a problem & bad reaction?

I am keeping my eyes WIDE open & have begun to write a pros/cons list so that I don't nag along the way but am AWARE of changes to be made... therefore I can accept, tolerate or reject.

Pros: on Saturday night he suggests & we went out to one of our favourite restaurants, he "says" he wants to still be in a LTCR...& eventually live together.

- making efforts to compliment me (180 for him)
- "says" he wants to have fun & vacations with me.. soon (in couple weeks)
- tries to find time to "relax" with me (struggling with 180 for him)
- makes effort to approach me sexually (180 for him)
- allowing me into his space/home again

Con:
- still procrastinating putting my name on letter of intent for business ownership
- selfish
- unwilling to admit some feelings towards me
- not romantic/affectionate
- work/business trumps all non work/business related stuff
- can't commit, "seeing how it goes"


Me: I was "pushy" again on Saturday night...wanting more & now. While making out in our old bedroom in the dark, i suggested he light a candle. .. I was disappointed that he didn't want to be romantic & said so. This make out session was in his mind a "quickie" before dinner. He "says" he will be romantic another time. After he showered, I tried to discuss it, saying how I want us to be successful, etc. He says "who doesn't" & thats what anyone would say.

While in the kitchen I noticed a box of expensive mens cologne. He wouldn't offer too much information on where it came from. Eventually, I found out that its from a woman that he met a few times at a party, she liked him. He did not. He did not want to discuss it or that time. Says he is done with that part of his life & does not want to talk about it. I am hurt, but left it alone.

Then after dinner, I wanted to fool around a little in the car (while waiting at the airport for my DD)... he did not. I took this as rejection & cried quietly a little. (wondering why I was so emotional). He began to fall asleep.

Sunday: I called him to apologize for the pushy behaviour. Stating that I am anxious after being in limbo & wanted reassurance we are on the same page. I am happy for his progression & that I am not wanting to rush him. I didn't get much of a response.... left it alone for the day/evening. He texted later with a smiley face & cheers.

I realize that I get clingy/needy/desperate close to "that time of the month"... and then it "arrives" today.