Not a hijack at all. I am happy for the conversation. (and avoiding both work I need to finish, dirty dishes, and most important--bedtime).
Yep, you are probably right that the way home doesn't appear totally smooth. But I have had some interesting invitations lately, so who knows. If he is not at least questioning all this-- with the $ he stands to lose, the difficulties with scheduling, etc. etc.-- then he is definitely a mess.
Dunno. This was a wacky weekend. H and I were both at a bday party for friend's son. I managed to strain my calf muscle so badly I couldn't walk and was in excruciating pain. Hard to show a PMA in that situation-- but I actually am proud of how I handled it. I tried to keep a pretty low profile, stay engaged and in good spirits as much as I could. I did ask H if he could keep our D for an extra bit that day to give me some time to rest. (Inside I was really nervous about how I'd get through the rest of that day-- and the next several days. I couldn't walk, and have never had an injury like this). And even though he saw how much pain I was in, he said he had too much work and 'errands' to do. And was very comfortable telling me what I should do.
Ok, then.
Of course, the day before, he told me of another schedule change due to his work.
I mean, seriously.
So, yeah-- I'm not totally sure I want him back. Would I be attracted to him now? I'm not sure. He was never very chivalrous, not one to hold doors open, for example. It always bugged me, made me feel unimportant. We had some big trust issues even before I got pregnant.
I take responsibility for my part- I was not as good of a partner as I should have been. I was not easy to live with. I did not do my part.
