claire- part 7

[Maybell]

You are a worthy person who deserves much, much better, for sure.

What did you decide about the service?

I just had a long text conversation with my H. Basically started with me stamping my feet and demanding to know how we got here, and him saying he wasn't really sure.

!!!!!!

But eventually that line of talk played out and I changed the tone. That's not how I want things to be with us. Sent him a picture of the beer I was drinking, and ultimately it went all over the place. We talked about rings. (Both off, now, but we discussed the thinking) talked about family stuff, things from our past, books we're reading, that sort of thing. It ended ok.

Btw, he said about the rings that he doesn't want to wear it till it doesn't feel hypocritical. And I said, if they ever come back on, I don't want them to be the same ones that became tokens of our unhappiness. But I agree, when you're married in every way except sharing the life together, you take care of business first.

I'm not sure why I'm posting this on your thread. Sorry if it's a hijack. I guess I felt if I wanted things to be different, then I'd need to make them different. I guess DB has given me that kind of agency.

I really had a pretty demanding weekend.

Anyway, Claire, can I be supportive and agree with your IC about the negative mindset? I don't know where your magic formula is, but I don't think you've found it yet. He's a fool for leaving you, absolutely, and he wouldn't want your daughter treated as you are being treated. But I don't think you're convinced you want him back enough yet for that road home to be paved smoothly.

But I'll be praying for you to find *your* path and that you have the courage and wisdom to follow it.