still holding on - 4

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Thanks for the reminder Ahoy.

My insecurities really do come out some times. If ever asked what I love about myself, I would have to make something up and not really be sincere about it.

I have not ever been really good at loving myself. I've beaten myself up so much in life. It is one of the things that W said she was tired of helping me with.

I sometimes feel that I have focused my adult life on giving to everyone else and not myself (and that made me feel good - I was proud of that).

I have worked a lot.... (to provide, to create, to make others happy, to make me feel accomplished, to make others proud of me) but I have never done anything just fun for myself, and I have never cared that I didn't. I got joy out of being a husband and father. That's what I loved about myself.