still holding on - 4

[u-turn]

Thanks Maybell
I know that being a SAHM for was such an important part of her and our lives. It was a decision that was made by us after our second was born. She says she has no regrets about this. It did cause money conflicts at the time - I was commuting to work and away from the house more than she liked - and really more than I liked too. At the time I felt that I was giving what I could, but I learned that I was really loosing what was important. Our family life was suffering because of it - I could see that it was actually destroying us because I could not find the balance.

11 years ago I decided to make the drastic change of giving it all up and starting a business (with Mrs. U-turn) and working from home - We basically in a way became stay at home parents (It was GREAT) we were business partners too (life was good). The economy changed and she went out to get a job and I became somewhat of a stay at home dad then while still running the business.

I totally understand and value the new career that she has begun and earned. She loves it and I am proud of her. She is valued and needed by so many people now at work. It has to feel good.

I totally wish that I was more mature and did things better when she was a SAHM. I felt I was doing the best that I could at the time.

I also wish the I handled myself better when she got this new job and transitioned myself into other roles at home. I totally dropped the ball again on that one - I believe that is what I'm actually trying to recover from.