Maybell- Thank you! I'm thankful there are others who can understand the feeling that comes with reading or seeing the A in black & white.

I know it happened but seeing texts that are date & time stamped have me spinning. What were the kids & I doing? Did he call & say goodnight to the kids in the middle of their texting? What was his mood that day? Etc.

He will not be around her. I definitely can't handle that. He said he has no communication with her. She is in the same town & she does live not far from him. There is a possibility that they could run into each other at a restaurant or a bar that I know they went to together.

I also worry what if she shows up at his place? I mean that could happen - she spent the night with him. She knows where he lives & where his office is.

I will keep verifying. He actually said last night - I wish there was a way for you to know I'm at home at night. Maybe I should text you a picture with my iPad showing the time & date. I just replied " maybe there is."

I wish he could have answered my questions and that I didn't read the texts. Although who's to say I would not have read them anyway.
And, I'm not sure I can honestly say I wish I had not read them.
It gives me a glimpse into who he is with other people and what he was doing in our separation.


Thanks again Maybell!


H:40
Me:35
D5
S4
S3 months
Married 8 years Together 17 years
BD: 5/23/2014