I feel like a schmuck. That's what it feels like. And, in some ways, I've acted like one. I need to own it.

I lived with a very greedy, manipulative addict for a long time and I adopted a lot of his ways of being...especially when it came to money. That's not on Smokey though...That's on me. I took on values that didn't really mesh with who I am.

I think poverty changes you too.

Regardless, it's on me and I need to own it. I do feel much more sensitive to the situations of others...when it comes to money.

I know what it feels like to be stretched so thin emotionally that you just don't have it in you to earn a buck.

IDK...just working through some of this ick about money today. Trusting that I asked the question and God will provide me with an answer.

"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man

“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson