still holding on - 4

[dawgy]

Turn , I have asked myself the same questions ,what did she love about me and how do I portray that self again . This is a hard question . You brought up an interesting point also about the fact she has a good career now and she doesnt need you anymore . I believe that is a huge factor with my sitch . The loyalty our women have is pathetic . After years of sacrifice earning and overtime while she didnt make much money ( although she worked very hard as a stay at home mom for 10 years ) , now she has a good career and earning a good income she says screw you H , I dont need you anymore . That ticks me off to no end .Some days I feel alot of anger towards her , just for things like that .

However Turn , your sitch genuinely looks like it is improving , I mean it really seems like she has seen the light . Remember the WAS doesnt always apologize or show remorse for what they have done . They only want to get away from the pain and the shame of what theyve done and carry on with their lives with their spouse pretending like the A never happened .And maybe our duty as a devouted spouse trying to save our marriages is do exactly that . Its the past , forgive and forget .Move on , if you still want her . My position as of now is to get her back and forgive and forget , get as much of my life back as possible then once I have that ........ Dawgy