Thanks, uR.... I had a feeling you were leaving me to the boys...oops, sorry, Mach, I meant "Men".
I'm not too overwhelmed, as long as I take mini-breaks. I'm planning on getting back to it tomorrow. I know this gift of time I have is not to be wasted. This is far too important. <<<< that, and I want this part over with. (Not rushing, I promise. I can be very thorough when it's this important.)
The "look good" thing... Lol, I'll try not to let it make me crazy. At least not MORE crazy.
I did look like a hot mess. It was kinda funny. But, the appearance thing was secondary to the fact that I was surprised by his call, and his offer to stop by? No, no, no, no....not ready, not in right frame of mind. It freaked me out a little.
I am sure I was NOT cool and all "nonchalant" on the phone. What I wish I sounded like? Something like: "Who's this? Oh, yeah, whatevs, H...ummmmm, yeah, that won't work for me.....I'm super busy, what with my life and such...."
Nope. It was more like, "hello? Huh??? Oh, um, letter? For me? HERE? Not now! Now? NO!! I'm uhhhh, cooking. Stove! Stove-cooking. Maybe tomorrow?"
Ok, it probably wasn't THAT bad..... Somewhere between. I'll get it.
Ooohhhh, yyyeeesssssssss, I want it badly. I can do this. I don't know how long it will take, but it doesn't even matter. I just know there is something better coming....I can feel it. I can "hope" for him to get better, but I'm working for me. Cuz that's all I can do. And APPARENTLY, I'm worth it.
Have I told you before?? That I ain't doing this again???
