Thanks for weighing in, Maybell! I'm actually not too worried about whether or not we'll feel a connection -- to me, that's one of the few things we have going for us. (In fact, I think it's one of the things that I misread pre-BD. I really thought that he had fallen out of love and was trying to justify leaving by playing the blame game. Now, though, I think I see more clearly that it isn't a question of whether or not he loves me or is "in love" with me, but whether or not he can learn how to heal from past wounds.)
I think my question about trust is about the bigger picture -- can I trust that he is sincerely trying? Can I trust that he willing to do the things that I need him to do in order to restore that trust? Can I trust that he's not going to BD on me again out of the blue?
I know that complete trust is not possible at this stage. But it seems nearly impossible to have any right now.
In other news, PMA is strong for me today. I have GAL plans for tomorrow and Saturday and am just feeling really great about work and how I'm doing.
