This is terrifying - I hope you understand

[Shakspr]

Just talked to MC, who is now my IC. She is solution oriented - her advice aligns well with DB.

Apparently my recent outbursts/over-emoting are the normal byproduct of grief. She asked me, if my wife burst through the door to reconcile, right now, what would I say?

"Thank God." But then, the reality set in. I would need to know what's changed. I would need my trust restored. And since she has just as much work to do as I do, I would need to know that she was at least willing to try.

It will probably be a long time, if ever, for that to happen. So I better get prepared to break this to my kids as gently as possible, and complete a whole 'nother grieving process.

Shakespear ("e" missing intentionally)