I can be pretty confident hiding behind typed words.. . It's the in-person thing. I'm trying to pinpoint when this nonsense started. I also think it's situational, but I haven't yet defined the difference. For example, certain environments, I can totally "own it", whether I'm in the company of men or women. Others, I make assumptions and act as if I have no business being seen or heard...that's confusing to me.
Funny, my mother used to tell me that when I was little, I would cry if someone simply looked at me "cross eyed"... I don't yet understand why the face-to-face makes such a difference.
Originally Posted By: Shining
So...are you really disconnected ? I would say I'm "being" disconnected. I'm not making the efforts I used to, and I hold myself back. And I even know it's silly at the time, but I do nothing to change it. It's not working for me....lol.
I'm not going to say a lot here, except that these two are related to each other....or at least they appear related in your case....
Quote A, is because there isn't any emotion over the internet, and your reaction is private, in comparison to in real life. When you fear the judgement or reaction from another human....
Quote B, is the disconnect that you ALLOW yourself, in order to shield yourself from that emotion. You are simply trying to hide , and get lost in the crowd.....
So....
WHY do YOU feel, that you do that ????
HOW do you feel when you do that ????
WHAT triggers are you sensing, when that happens ????
. It's the in-person thing. I'm trying to pinpoint when this nonsense started. I also think it's situational, but I haven't yet defined the difference. For example, certain environments, I can totally "own it", whether I'm in the company of men or women. Others, I make assumptions and act as if I have no business being seen or heard...that's confusing to me. 