need to GAL

[hope224]

To be honest, I may have slowly became naggy. I feel that I had been supportive of him. I sang him praises because he deserved them. But, I may have mothered him a little more than I should have. We were planning on travels and bucket list but then I got pregnant so things changed a lot and the problem he had with my past bothered him more and more everyday. I had no idea about it because he kept telling me he was happy and there were no problems.
The problems he stated that were in our marriage were:
1) we didn't do anything anymore ( planning on GAL activities and working on it. eg. going to the gym, going out with friends, doing fun activities)
2) I kept telling him he deserved better. ( never say this ever, even if by some miracle our M gets restored)

I don't remember much but he told my mum that I was not the same person that he married. about a month ago, he did mention that even if somehow happen to reconcile, we were not having any more babies.So, it gives me hope because we sort of had feelings of a new relationship a month ago but I probably screwed that up by being too clingy and interested and giving.

MY plan now is to be the woman he fell in love with. I have always wanted to have a great body(because of his influence in health) and I know that he wanted me to achieve my goal in that. But, its not just for him. Ive wanted to exercise and be healthy too. I will also start dressing better, which he has noticed already. He asked me the other day why i keep wearing low cut outfits all the time. I told him i just grabbed what was available even though I make sure to look good cuz it gets his attention. I used to be more outgoing. I will work on being just that by working out a schedule for the baby. I was independent too and I am showing him that by doing as many things as possible on my own and he has noticed that too. But, I just need to be back to my attractive confident self before I notice any changes. H tells me i am the only one he can talk to but I am only going to listen to him and zip my mouth. I read a bunch of forums on that yesterday.

But, love is tough. I had a rough day yesterday and cried a lot because of his interest in the OW. But, I know I have to be patient and persistent and keep making list of my plan of action. Thanks Mr. Bond.

And FunDad, I accept his MLC( i think thats what he is going through)because i keep thinking of the vow and I am just looking at this period like its his time to get evrything out of his system.I know he has regrets and this is his time to get rid of it all.