You know when I was younger whenever a relationship didn't work out I would dust myself off and move on without a hiccup. This is so different. When I got married I stopped looking. Never had any desire to date. It's like reprogramming my brain. It has been three years but I still have no desire to date. I guess I should consider it like meeting a friend for coffee.
I have no expectations really. But it's still nerve-wracking. What do you wear? What do you talk about? Etc. I'm making this a bigger deal than it really is.
I am still reeling a bit and it irritates me. I feel like I am on pins and needles waiting for the other shoe to drop. I feel like J is plotting against me. Great...now I am becoming paranoid. Ugh.
I haven't heard from my IC. I wish he would get back to me. I need some sense knocked into me.
WH
AT BD: WH 41, J 43; Bomb 2/5/2012 Two kids, one dog D Final 6/18/14 J marries OW 1/24/15 "No matter where you go, there you are"
