H has asked me to join him re job prospect out of city (I guess for the drive as we used to go on drives, or maybe for the company). I am thinking about it ...
Well h decided 4 me. h was going thro' finances re growing biz. Has expenses re this, but blew on good life! Now he's in trouble! (Party before responsibility ya know?)
Was in foul mood after & that was the end of that 'idea'! I was hesitant anyway b/c it's so far - what would we say (!!) for duration? But was thinking about it, in case of baby step, in light of my recent 'harshness.' h probably felt same w/ bad mood (2 go alone).
This morning my foot is swollen, arch, my ankles hurt ... & my right arm is painful, knuckle in prticular, (may have sprained something 'turning' parent during change time). My back is also killing me! I think I need 2 thro' in some strength exercises. Pay closer attn 2 diet (not just eat '4 hunger',when I started eating 4 health) Anyway, all in all it would have been too much 'work' to talk & PMA w/ h. Way too much - I will enjoy the peace, rest & do some db reading (my helper is late has her own concerns & may not come out, but 1 thing at a time. Enjoying my coffee 1st & will attend to parent very, very s l o w l y & mindfully with music in background).
I may not comfortable re: body, but am 'with mind'! I can relax with the space ... it's weird, I seem to need that now
I will see how h is since this is employment related ... what happens when the trigger (with possibility) shows up again. h was actually quite pleasant, although a litte distant on leaving (had been harping - had "no $ to get there", interesting - but he made it).
pbetra ---- M: 15 yrs (in 2014) BD: 6/03/2014 Infidelity ('known' from July 2014) Denied PA Feb 2015 2 leave Mar 2015 (left early Summer). Some contact. Back briefly 2017 (after family death) Separated 2017
re growing biz. Has expenses re this, but blew on 
(my helper is late has her own concerns & may not come out, but 1 thing at a time. Enjoying my 
