I'm starting to feel it more around female friends, too. Disconnected, I don't fit in...exactly what GB said. I feel myself acting as though I'm "not one of them", and I pull back. I wonder if it comes off that I don't want to connect....I can't quite explain it yet.
I don't believe that you ARE that way. I feel that you ALLOW yourself to be that way...
Saying that you just "are" , allows you to use that excuse anytime you don't want to face yourself....
And only YOU are able to dig out those "whys".
And before you say "nah. that's not right". You interact HERE, with Men (well T2 jk)and you don't seem to be intimidated any. You interact with Women here as well, and don't seem intimidated.
So...are you really disconnected ?
Or or you just socially awkward ?
Introverted personality ??
Extroverted personality ??
Somewhere in the middle ????
Many people are socially awkward, yet still function at a high level of comfort around people without having to tag it as being this or that...
So, I ask this. Why do you ALLOW yourself to feel this way ?
And WHAT are you fearing the most, when you are in those situations ???
Judgement ???
WHEN in your life have you allowed judgement to rule your personality ???
WHY did you fear it ???
Social status ???
Monetary ??
Expectations of being successful ??
Expectations of failure ???
Quote:
I was noticing at a parent meeting at school last night, I sat alone in the back. Watched all the other parents, single and coupled. It was like I walked into the room, and even though I arrived at the same time as them, they were "together", or "all in on the joke" ... I'm probably not coming across well in writing..... Just out of the loop, really. That's not who I used to be when I was younger at all.
See above ^^^
I also agree with T2 about your hit list. Yes, you need to have one, yet you do need to focus on the most important aspects of it first, and prioritize it, to how it fits into your life now.
