was reading your post of 9-7, ya know, what you say could come from my mouth. i get a glimmer of old man - i do not think anything changes (really) tho. where this guy went-idk.
your comment later about you having a great time with people and they like you- then h picking at you for - whatever. me too- what the heck IS that anyway? My mom used to do the same - my freinds mom also- jealousy of our attention??? my h loves huge crowds , like a fair, where he's ananoymous. He sits in a corner at parties - prefers one on one with people. wtf??? he can be very charming and everyone always likes him - when he is inclined to participate. it's such a mixture of insanity.
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What's holding me back is only FEAR.
Fear of walking away from all this when it could have been saved. Fear of giving up when there was still hope. Fear of moving forward when it might be wiser to wait just a little longer.
I know, me too - I share your fears- how do we ever know when it is "enough". Those here that seem to know- say we WILL KNOW when it is time for us to just give up - this bit of wisdom will find us. I hope so - it is strictly one more day at a time for me. It's been so long- i still cannot imagine h not being somewhere in my life. just a "buddy" tho- i'm not so sure that can work forever for me.
you sound great - and gal-ing like mad. My H is soooo what you describe - that he all of a sudden can't find anything good aboutme. past year- when together he is alot nicer and "old self". No "love" tho -
sometimes i wonder if he's is truly mlc - and there is even a prayer he'll "return" to normal - or if i imagined the entire 30+ years of (what i thought was)happiness with each other.
