This is terrifying - I hope you understand

[Shakspr]

I can't stop sobbing. So much of what she says is TRUE. It's mostly past stuff, but it's true. So now, on top of this hopelessness because she clearly wants OUT, I am beating the crap out of myself for every time I could have made a change.

Darn. Double Darn.

You guys are all saying the right things, but right now I'd like to just be someone, somewhere else, anyone or anyplace other than where I am.