I'll take MLC for $1000, Alex...

[wishing, hoping]

Thanks BK and Mighty. Helps to know people are in my corner.

I hate that I am so floored by this wedding. I am not surprised. I knew it was coming and yet I am shocked. I guess I never thought he would really go through with the wedding. I thought he would string her along but I was wrong. I was under the impression things were starting to hit rock bottom for them. I guess it doesn't make any difference to J. He's not marrying her because he loves her. He's marrying her for different reasons. He would probably tell me she needs someone to take care of her and he feels bad for her. But truth is he needs someone to take care of him sick as that is.

He's a real con artist is what he is. A liar and a con artist. I wish someone would expose him for the fraud that he really is. I wish someone would bring him to his knees. I wish it could be me, but I need to keep my distance.

I have gone from shock to sadness to anger to being sick to my stomach. I feel dead inside. He's out of the county and he made a huge deal about making sure he could FaceTime and talk to the kids and he hasn't called once. He called Sunday before he got on the plane. He called S tonight because S called him asking him if he could go to a function with a friend and Then told S he wasn't back until Thursday so to clear it with me. But never called me to talk to D or asked S to let him talk to D. So much for missing the kids. He's such a phony.

Oh well. J will never change. And I guess he's not my problem anymore. And I think you guys are right, as more time goes on I'll be picking up more responsibility for the kids. I think since D wandered off at the campground last month, J has been more critical about OW's care of the kids. But that remains to be seen.

I am just gonna keep some distance from J for a while. I think it's best. My mom made a comment about how when we were all on vacation last month I was like a totally different person. I said it was because J wasn't around and I only needed to deal with him once a day at best. She said what does that tell you?

So now I have a date. Still weird. Dating at 43? I never thought I would be dating at this point in my life. I hope dating goes better the second time around. Lol!

WH