Need to figure out how to move forward (thread #4)

[shodan]

My detaching and GAL activities went well last week and this weekend. But unfortunately, with my W home, we are around each other more, which seems to have eliminated any benefits that I had from detaching last week. Last week, I was around a lot of people at work and after work. This week, work has been quieter, so I have not been as social. And my W and I spent a decent amount of time together this weekend (mainly as family) so my "attachment" comes back. Now, I sit here with the pain in my chest that I hate. The pain of not knowing what will happen.

Tomorrow I am going to a late yoga class, Thursday night I have my guitar lesson and am going out with a friend afterwards, and then Monday I have an event at my work. But this weekend we will be around each other a bit, which is tough. On the one hand, I like being around her and showing her the new Sho (social, confident, fun, and strong).

I keep looking at my notes to myself and what I need to continue to do:

Don’t talk about A
Don’t talk about texts
don’t talk about R
Fix myself, work on myself
Don’t show bitterness and anger
Be a bit more mysterious, pull away a bit
Be confident, strong, fun and social
Be patient
Be a great father
Be less controlling