I'm sorry that the only thing I can offer you is hugs and all the wishes that I have for you to get through this awful time as best you can for you and your son.
This past weekend was a turning point for me too. I also feel more at peace than I have for a while. Still have a ways to go but now I know that I'll get there.
It's funny how much we have in common. My H is in construction too and doesn't much care how he dresses either.
Take care of yourself,
Mary
"God, help me keep my head up, my heart open, and know I'll always be guided along the path."