That's the part I don't know. I can't find it. I have no memory of being abused, or neglected.... I just don't know. I'm guessing I stopped right here before, and dismissed it.
I don't feel that it always has to be an event. It can come from anywhere at anytime.
Often, it starts as simply a thought in one's head, that maybe they aren't this or that.
Similar to what the MLCer experiences. Often there is a single thought that gets magnified inside of their own noggin...
And they tell two friends, and they tell two friends, and so on and so on....
And there you have the Herbal Essence of dysfunctional thinking....
That lone thought can cause a ripple effect throughout your entire existence. Often, that small thought gets stuck, which crumples your internal belief system, the thought becomes your words, and your words become your actions. Then over the course of time, your actions become behavior patterns.
So maybe this doesn't have anything to do with your past, or maybe it does.
In what areas of your life do you feel this way ??
With love, parenting, friendship, jousting ???
Define WHEN those feelings encompass you, and think about WHY you feel that way, when they happen....
