The Waiting One (and tired of it)

[Atsbaby]

Thanks Daring!

I have had a whirlwind of the last few days. Clark spent the day Sunday with all of us! He invited me to join them for lunch with nana. It was sad though, she has Alzheimer's and you could sense it immediately. After a while, she seemed to remember more, but it was still awkward.

Then the kids wanted to go play golf, so we did. We had a blast. First time as a family doing this.

Then Monday Clark began texting me throughout the day... Long time since this has happened. I could still hear the MLC but I'm doing well dbing.

Then last night after football practice, Clark stayed over. We were up until 3am, talking and this was where I really still saw the MLC, but he was making future plans. He's still on the fence, but more of him is on my side.

I think I heard some projection and definite spewing! I was getting blamed for stuff, not sure what. I guess that's what we'll talk about this weekend. The projection was him stating, "if I decide to take you back...." I believe he wants to, but may feel I won't be happy after our conversation this weekend. I'm not sure...stop mind reading!

I really want this to work, but Clark needs to go away. There is still too much of him and not much Superman, though he has recently made some appearances!

Today I'm getting texts about paying off bills and finishing work on the house, but it's still a lot of him talk. Not much family or us...deep breath. Still a long road ahead.

I know he isn't planning on moving home just yet, but I'll know more by Sunday. I think a slow transition back is what we need. He hasn't been there for almost 6 months. It'll be huge when he is back, of course it'll be nice to have help with everything too.