Cathy, Just a quick comment. Scimmed through the last few posts. Our H's could be twins! There's a scary thought. The anger , the running, etc. Girl, I've been here for years. I think I'm just starting to get the DBimg down and he is just starting to stick his head out of the tunnel. It doesn't last long.
The spending is scary. I separated money 4 years ago. It has come to gradual end. He is about out of money. That was the crux of his ranting 2 weeks ago. I have some, he doesn't. No, I'm not sharing. He views that as controlling. I am busy making house payments ahead of time, and taking care of a tax mess he made.
Like you, I hope the end is near.
When you can't make a decision because you are torn between your heart and your head, listen to the half with the brain.