Depressed WAW, digging in, learning about myself

[Ahoy]

Good for you!
Just be careful not to mind read. You think that her telling you about other men means that she hasn't closed the door to you because she is communicating, but it could be that she is trying to prepare you for the fact that she is moving on, and placing you in the friend zone. The point is, there is no way of knowing what is behind her words and actions, so don't waste too much time trying to make sense of it.

I'm not trying to burst your bubble, just trying to manage your expectations (which we should be trying not to have, anyway).

I'm proud of you for not sending those texts. Keep reminding yourself of sandi's rules. They will be important tools for you during this time.