Things have gone really well with my H over the past few days. We had great conversations on Friday and Sunday, we ML on Sunday afternoon, H bought me a small gift over the weekend (it was a snack food item, similar in the theme to the one I'd given him last week but geared toward my taste preferences), H was being more upbeat/friendly than usual in his otherwise routine text messages yesterday, and H told me yesterday that he confirmed our MC session for next week before I had the chance to ask him about it.
So, why did I wake up this morning with that feeling in the pit of my stomach that things are not quite right?
I think for two reasons.
1. Yesterday, H was supposed to confirm our date night for Friday but didn't. When he came to pick up D7 after work last night, he said that he would "be in touch" about it. (H prefers to be discreet around D7, which is fine.) Now, I was teaching a class last night until 10pm, which H knew, so I wasn't expecting a phone call, but I am surprised that he didn't send a text or email. So now, I'm disappointed that he didn't keep his promise to let me know AND worried that there's some issue with our date night that he didn't think could be resolved by text or email.
2. When things feel good, I start to question them. The last time I felt REALLY good about the M was the week before BD. What if he is lying to me again? Can I trust him? How can I trust him?
How do I deal with these negative thoughts in a way that doesn't hurt me or the piecing process that we've started?
