Feeling stronger than ever

[mleigh4]

Thanks for your advise. So I have an appt for a consultation with a lawyer this we'dnesday. So what do I say?? I don't want a divorce but tell me the process? Or do I go in there to explain the situation and ask what can I do to protect myself? In California, you can go through mediation to set up the separation agreement and then can file for D once done. Do I initiate the mediation so he can see exactly what the D would look like on paper before we take that step?? I just sit here wondering, if H wants the divorce, why isn't he doing the work? And why am I?

I am not a religious person, but last night I hit a real low spot. I was feeling totally overwhelmed with sadness, anger and fear over this weekend. All of a sudden I felt this wave of warmth go through me, like my thoughts got washed out, and all that was in my head were the big white words LET GO. It was really strange, I was left feeling like I shouldn't worry, that everything will be ok. So I am handing it over to a higher power and asking for help to cope. Not easy for me to do!

Last question for those that live with their MLC'ers. How do you ignore the craziness? The late nights out, the all nighters, the hiding in the other room with the phone, the lies. How do you not let it get to you? I know detaching and letting go. I am doing well but still working on it. But does anyone have a perspective I can use to get me through those tough moments of weakness and the urge to react?