Everyone was right...especially 25yrsmlc..

[Shakspr]

This certainly seems to be a decision point for you. With decisions to follow either way. Do the analysis - and execute your plan, whatever it is, to the very best of your ability.

Here's a funny one that seems to apply to your H (with all apologies to those with alcoholism, which is a very real, and tragic disease):

Life is hard. It's harder when you're stupid.