Quote: The Lord knows what you can and can not handle.
When I first started date H, it was right after I had started my journey with myself. I didn't date anybody seriously until I was in my early 30's, met H, he wasn't the most honest guy then either. #2 had left him in February of that year, I had met him in June of that year. H never told me he was married twice, told me about the first time, but not the second. Just made it sound like they lived together. I lost myself to my first love, I didn't care about anything and my journey stalled until the bomb! I felt so good about myself before I met H! I feel that way now again and won't lose that feeling.
I found out through a phone book of all places that they had the same last name and then confronted H on the phone and the line went dead! I had caught him hiding something from me right away!
I did question whether it was smart to date H, he had baggage, but remember saying to myself the very thing I quoted from you above!
I feel like I'm watching a horror mystery flick. I don't want to watch it, but I won't shut it off and I can't turn my eyes away until the end.
I said this earlier something is telling me to be patient and to not give up yet. If I did give up now and tell H it's over, it would be more to get back at him and OW. Something like this: Tell H to his face, you don't want me then fine, I'm moving on. You and her have a fine life together, but I'll be watching you both like hawks when S is around! If there's any drinking at all by either of you, I'll have Social Services at the door.
Maybe that something is God. I just don't know, but my gut says wait it out and to not make any decisions that H has to make for himself.
