Instead of feeling lost and in pain...YOU should be thanking God and Greyhound he's gone.
He is sick. He chooses to be sick. And YOU have become co-dependant on his sickness.
His walking out IS the best thing he could have done for you and your son.
He is unhealthy and his sickness was taking over every facet of your life like a cancer.
Get out a piece of paper and write down all the GOOD qualities of that man...NOT the ones you wish he had or tried to convince yourself he had...but the ones he REALLY had.
Then write down all his negatives.....and when you're done with those lists, you'll have your answer.
Go out and celebrate your freedom from his self imposed nightmare...you haven't lost a thing, HE HAS. T2