Depressed WAW, digging in, learning about myself

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No movement. Went to church together again. Gave D2 a bath at her apt Saturday night. She has been a little more warm towards me lately. She told me she was sick again Friday night. I asked her if anything was going on, that she seemed really out of it the last few weeks. She brought up something that I had not really considered might be affecting her: We had a miscarriage in January. It's due date was a few days ago. I hadn't really thought about that related to this whole mess, but I'm now wondering how big of a factor that has played with her psyche. We were solid and happy at the turn of the year - "the best place we've ever been" (her words). Then we had that miscarriage, she started business school, and we basically didn't see each other for 5 months until the BD. I'm trying to 180 and GAL as much as I can so that when she gets out of her fog, hopefully she will look back at me and see someone she wants to fight for a M with.

Overall, I'm still happy with my state of mind. Still in love with her and willing to do whatever it takes for our M, but not obsessing about her and not really dreading her making this permanent.