I did manage to sleep off and on. I'm not trying not assume he went to OW's, but don't know where else he could have to. He took some clothes, his work clothes and his winter coats?!
I also find it very strange that he did run again. Things weren't looking that way. But then H wasn't talking to me a whole lot, he hasn't been drinking a lot, for him anyway, the last few weeks. I know he wasn't feeling well and was mad that he couldn't just "watch his movie!".
When he was yelling I told him that I didn't like that he was doing that in front of our son, the swearing, but H made it about H? I can't remember what he said, but it was about something totally different.
This whole this is so confusing right now. Like H should be here, but isn't?
Quote: According to what HB told me, it does look like they are going backwards at this time when they really are not. She said that her husband went through the same thing when he had to face his final fears and he got scared. She watched him go through this in fast speed because it only took him a week. Your husband could take longer or it could be the same amount of time.
But my H isn't here. HB's H was at home. I thought I was giving my H space, not pesting him or pushing, but I just couldn't let H be an A** to me anymore, thus the reason I spoke the way I did to him last night.
Now I don't want to talk to him or see him. I feel like I should go dark and just let him do what he's going to do. Whatever that is.
How can he come back now? He won't, he's moving again. This time it'll have to be different, but I do know I'm not letting him treat me like crapp anymore.
Tal: It is scary that he's the way he is and maybe he cannot change that part of him. I don't know that I want to stay married to him unless he gets help.
