Update after several months of absence

[trc2009]

I'm not trying to put the cart before the horse, but I'm amazed at my new found ability to just get over stuff. I'm not bitter at all about her behavior earlier in the year. Knowing what I know now, I know she was just following the WAW script that we see so often here.

I don't ever want to be her second choice. I flatly told her during our last fight that if she runs out of money, I will not take her back just because of that. That was before she started sleeping with this dude (I'm just going to assume that she is.....no sense kidding myself. Believe none of what they say and half of what you see fits her like a glove).

I'm moving forward at this point. If someone I like comes along, I will ask her out. If I get those butterflies we all love, then it may turn into something more. That is now an option for me. But man, I'm not sure if I could get over this. Especially if she comes back hat-in-hand for financial reasons. Again, I don't want to put the cart before the horse....but I suppose I need to have an idea of how I think I should handle that type of situation.