Yup, just part of my brain's wiring I guess; very logical, methodical, feel like everything needs to be explained and justified with evidence. Although from talking to her it sounds like she has genuine remorse for all this, now that it's not just me that is affected by this situation, but also her and the OM's friends. Or she's a good actress.
I haven't initiated calls/texts since she's been out of town, and haven't initiated ILY since discovering her nasty messages. She does know I'm reading DR, but I haven't asked her to read it. I have stuck to my resolution to not snoop so far, but I am still a proponent of, "trust but verify."
Still feel like I backslide every now and then though, I have talked to both my parents and her mom, but only had told them that we are just going through a rough spot. Unfortunately that somehow prompted her mom calling her and basically telling her that she's a disappointment to the family and everybody back home thinks she's either sleeping around or gay. At least the W called me to talk about it and not the OM, is that a good sign?
Anyways, I've been feeling better with some time to myself, so if nothing else there's that. Probably going down to the range and pop off a couple rounds, haven't gotten any time out there since before I deployed (and thankfully I wasn't in a location where I needed to shoot back).
