Right now I feel like this is all a cruel joke and that the BB and everything has just been for nothing. It's like I want to just forget about the BB, forget about MLC--if there really is such a thing--and see a lawyer on Monday and move on with my life.
Laurie, bless your heart, your posts gave me such encouragement such hope...but wtf happened tonight? He's not in withdrawl or acceptance he's in denial and anger.
He's in love with OW, plain and simple, it's not an addiction, never was. He's not in MLC, he's just a jerk and a** and only cares about himself. He's not hurting any more than any other person I know. He's living his life the way he wants to live it..f***ed up! And this is what he's used to.
There has been no conflict for him living here. I've been nice, detached, loving, haven't been throwing anything in his face or making him feel bad. I just don't know anymore what to do.
The thing is I'm really not that upset, I'm calm inside, kind of at peace actually..maybe. I am crying off and on, but praying also. It's like a dream. I leave, H packs some stuff and sneaks away..again.
Why does he do this? Why does someone do this to themselves and then come back and blame the other person. And then he goes back to that stupid woman and she takes him back becuase she's just as pathetic! I mean he's married to me and she just doesn't F***'n care!!!!
He's not in withdrawl or acceptance he's in denial and anger.
