Feeling stronger than ever

[mleigh4]

Well things continue to progress worse here. I continue to let go. I found some great info and quotes on the web that I find truly helpful. Letting go is not easy, it really takes a mindset and a change in perception. So I have been feeling better. But call me crazy or is H acting out stronger than ever. My phone seems to be being checked. He has gone back to his ways of staying out late, coming home late from work, even missed S back to school night. Of course none of this is his fault, always the blameless victim. But I remain cool and calm and it seems to be driving him crazy.

This last weekend, he stormed in my room out of the blue and accused me of putting gps on his trucks. He spent an hour checking his truck, throwing things around in the garage. Very out of character for him. Then he proceeded to leave and didn't come home all night. Another first. What pissed me off was our S getting worried because the light we left on for daddy was still on this morning when we got up. Jerk. So when H got home I let him know that I feel his behavior is creating an unhealthy environment for our S and he should either shape up or get out. After some conversation H told me he thinks we should get a D. So there it is, he finally spit out a thought. Later in the day he was leaving to take S to mini golf, and he stuck a piece of paper in his bedroom door to see if I go in there or not. I asked him what is going on. He now accused me of letting strangers in the room to go through his stuff. Major paranoia going on. The only thing I can think of is that he is snooping through my credit card or phone records and maybe found out I put a retainer down for a PI?? The sad part is I have not used it.

So now H has become the snooper. Has anyone seen this turn before? Is this now his reaction to my detachment? Even though I have very much been against D, I have come to face the reality of a year of extreme unhappiness and a fear for what my S is watching go on with his dad. Now that the D word is out there, I am going to do a consultation with an attorney. It's time to protect myself.