Oh yeah. This has been a rough weekend in that arena. I never once shied away from being remorseful for my actions.
I screwed up so royally in a few ways.
It's hard though, because at some point I'd like her to understand that none of my stupid actions would've taken place had she not initiated things. There would never have been a rebound EA, because I've never thought about being with other women, except when I thought that was my inevitable future.
Sometimes I feel like she hadn't thought about the kids meeting a new person if we did get divorced. I think she thought I couldn't attract flies, let alone women.
I dunno, there's a long road left to travel and unless she gets some kind of counseling to help her deal with the anger and help her look inward at her stuff. For now, I stand tall and steadfast.
Me: 34 W:33 T: 10 M: 6 S: 6 D: 5 BD: 5/14 Still together(ish) Not giving up: 7/14 D talk has slowed, a lot. Gradually working on things together. Still separate bedrooms. Slow and Steady wins the race.