still holding on - 4

[Ahoy]

u-turn, try not to focus too much on any "signs" right now. Likely she is cycling through many different emotions (just as you are). Just because she gives you what might seem to be a positive sign one day does not mean that she will do the same the next day -- and she might give a negative sign instead. This is going to be a LONG ride, so don't make yourself crazy focusing on her every little word or action (I know this is easier said than done). Focus on yourself and what you want (beyond her, of course). Pursue the other things that make you happy -- and discover new sources of happiness as well. Focusing on yourself will take the pressure off her and allow her to see you in the best possible light as someone strong and independent.