afraid I have waited too long #4

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Been Awhile since I have posted. W is still thinking D I suppose.

She is still here in the house with me though. We are actually talking a bit more like 20 words instead of 10 a day.

She still is going out at odd times and coming home late. Recent intel I received says OM is living in a rooming house since being evicted by his GF, BM or whatever. W is going to have to support him as he doesn't seem willing to get a job. From Conversations I have overheard seems W and OM are coming down from the clouds a bit but not thinking beyond what I hear.

Trying to stay patient seems to be working. Still doing GAL and Detaching as much as possible.

This morning was a bit strange for me. I did my Normal Sunday routine got up, took shower, picked up some coffee and sat outside the church waiting for the service to begin. About 20 mins before the service I got a feeling I should go home. So that is what I did.

When I got here nothing out of the ordinary was going on so I started to read a book and did some laundry.

Whether it is a good Idea or not I am not sure but for about 3 weeks now I have wanted to ask my W a question in a very general sense. The opportunity never really presented itself so I didn't push it.

This morning though was different, I walked up to my W and asked if I could ask her a question. She said in a sighing tone "what"?.

I said " I have been working through some things and I would like to ask in a very general sense, not specific to you or anyone else for that matter, because I value your opinion and you know me better than anyone on this planet " What would make me a better Husband to someone?" I understand it is a loaded question and would appreciate if you could think about it and let me know. I thought I know or knew how to be Husband but Obviously that is incorrect."

I walked away went downstairs and left shortly thereafter for a bit.

But before I walked away I was watching her expression she didn't look up at me but it was an expression that I haven't seen in a long time. It was one of he actually values my opinion.

Maybe I should have stayed aroung a little longer but since I kinda sprung the question on my W I didn't want to seem like I was begging for an answer and I truly do want her to think about it and if she does answer me I hope it is truthful

Either way I will take it as information and nothing else.

Not sure if I should have asked the question or not but I have no 2nd thoughts at all about asking so now maybe she will answer.

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