Newbie Error- LRT too Soon- help!

[Bart42]

Thanks Starsky for the 2x4 and wet for the encouraging words. I re-read chunks of DB on the flight today, and what keeps hitting me right now is MWD's comments around both me needing patience and how 1 month of change for every 1 year of marriage is a decent yardstick. I guess I'm just not ready to demand separation or go dark at this point because if it fails I'll feel I jumped the gun ( and I say this knowing full well after reading the other threads here that most successful DBs will say they waited too long and we're too timid!)- I'm just not there yet.

So, if I can't pull the trigger on going dark, that leaves me DBing and GAL- so business as usual. Some small part of me wants to see the good in the dating site profile- she did it on her home email account, not work, and she left it there in her open email box for me to see (I did this to her about a month ago by deliberately leaving apartment sites open on the computer). Besides, unless she's looking for a harem, that may at least mean she doesn't see OM as her future.

I know I'm not facing up to the likely scenario, but with limited options I'm choosing to soldier on. At least I squelched the urge to call her when I landed and say how much I enjoyed our talk this am.

Ps- Starsky, following your switch in mdu's thread- thoughts and prayers to you and the mrs right now.