Doing all right

[BrightFuture]

OMG, Shining! I totally didn't expect this. Thank you for validating my feelings and telling me that I’m not the only one to perceive things in certain way. I would probably do the same if something like that was posted on my thread, because I do appreciate all the opinions and try not to take things personally.

I’m not much of a person who journals, it just doesn't come easy to me. I process everything in my head and by time it could make it to the paper, it is kind of done. So, when I post, most of the time I want an opinion or a question answered. I always get the questions answered, that is for sure. I just don’t know if I just cannot get the point across when I need an opinion. My guess is that at this point of time there is not much that people can offer in terms of my sitch. And I probably seem to be pretty content most of the times. And I’m. There are moments when I need help, but I recognize that my sitch is a lot better than others on this board in terms of not dealing with the spews, not having little kids to take care of, not having financial issues (not anymore!), not being worried about H’s spending money like crazy (because he is not), not dealing with the feelings about OW (because there is not one I know about.) But, at the same time this means that I have waaaay too much time for “stinking thinking”.

Shining, thank you again for taking time to post your thoughts. Today is the day I can use some attention and care.

Surprisingly, I’m not feeling angry or down about the wedding today. I have some images running through my head. But, I’m pretty calm.

Job, I don’t know what it is, but I have the same picture about H. I don’t advertise this here, so not to get 2x4 every time, but I have access to a lot of stuff about H. I do check the credit cards periodically, to be sure that he is not going crazy about the money. What I’ve seen so far is that he’s been very conservative with the spending. He doesn’t take a lot of cash either. Unless he is having some other source of cash, I would say that he is pretty much just gets out there to work and eat. This is quite unusual, because he normally does golf and goes to the local concerts. There is no evidence of OW. Unless she is a sugar momma and spends money on him, LOL.

I also think that he is not that happy and that he is thinking about me today. My BIL who lives here is also at the wedding today. I hope he tells H about how wonderful it is to have holidays with me and my family and how all his friends now think how cool I am. That should rub some salt on H’s ego. I’m sure he misses all of it. I know that he told this to my other BIL (my sister’s H) in the text recently that he misses spending time with them.

My son is coming for dinner tonight. I’m glad he is not bothered by these weddings. He told me that he doesn't care. I hope it is true.
I will have a drink to the H’s niece tonight (without bringing it up) and I will try to let it go.