Doing all right

[BrightFuture]

Mighty, he has an office address where he works. I know that he is renting a room too. He did it last year too, from a different guy and he asked me to forward his mail to that address. But, when he is done working (cannot do the work in the winter over there), he goes to live in our vacation home in Mexico. He does have a PO box in a border city close to that place (2 hour drive to the border.)

He prefers his mail coming to my house, so he would not have to worry about re-addressing it 2 times a year and asking somebody to check in both places when the address is not changed on time. I’m a very reliable source for this.

Job, yes, this subject keeps coming back. Well, this is almost the only thing I can discuss these days, since there is pretty much silence from H. It also shows that I need to work on my ability to say “NO”. When I think about what I wrote above and how inconvenient it would be to have the mail constantly redirected to different places, I’m hesitant to push H to take an action. I guess I just feel sorry for him. Plus, this is not that big of a deal for me, to send his mail once a month. And it only cost me about $6, it is not going to break me. I only mentioned that I need to start charging him for it because I hope it will make a point and remind him that this is not my duty, I’m doing him a favor. Most of the time I’m ok with that, but sometimes I get angry and just want him to disappear.

I think that you are right that the mail is also one of the things for H to keep connection to home (besides the convenience.) There are other things… I guess the new “phase of life” after me is not quite happening in the way H had envisioned.

Job, I’ve been thinking about growing resentment about this. And anger… I’m trying hard to process it and let it go. Your support is invaluable. I know I will get to the other side, I can feel it. I had this image in my head that I’m like a train, which was going solid and steady on the road of life. Then it got derailed and was on its side for some time. And now it is back on track, but it is picking up its speed very slowly. Too slow sometimes… But it is getting there…