Hang in there. Congrats at keeping your cool when dropping her off, it must have been a struggle, so consider that a hard-fought win.
I'm about to move out, myself (I'm not re-signing the lease for the apartment we rent) and I'm wondering if it will be easier to detach when I don't have him in my space (he's hardly ever home, but my stomach gets in knots just before I know he's due in for the evening)....so good luck with finding that peace again!
BF:40 M:33 SD: 12 T: 8, never married, no kids together BD: 8/4, "I'm just done", "...too tired and burnt to try". PA confirmed 8/5 "It happened, but it's been over for almost a year".
