Julie, Breath! You've had a lot of stress going on in your life lately and your h is just not with it. He's not thinking straight and won't for a long time.
As for unloading on him...we all have done it. So, what do you do now? Pick yourself up, dust yourself off and continue moving forward. No one is perfect and let me tell you, we all have had days when the pot boiled over and we had to let the steam off. You said what was on your mind, now leave him for now.
BTW, you do not sound pitiful. You sound exhausted and disgusted w/things. Take some walks to blow the cobwebs out of mind and enjoy the beginning days of fall.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
